Recoil - Want lyrics

I want to be sure of what it'll cost

I want to strangle the stars for all they promised me

I want you to call me on your drug phone

I want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later

I want to be there when you learn the cost of desire

I want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win

I want the name of the ruiner

I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn

I want you to know that being kind is overrated

I want to write my secret across your sky

I want to watch you lose control

I want to watch you lose

I want to know exactly what it's going to take

I want to see you insert yourself into glory

I want your touches to scar me so I'll know where you've been

I want you to watch when I go down in flames

I want a list of atrocities done in your name

I want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back

I want to remember when my nightmares were clearer

I want to be there when your hot black rage rips wide open

I want to taste my own kind

I want to be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's different on this side

I want you to come on strong

I want to leave you out in the cold

I want the exact same thing... but different

I want some soft drugs.. some soft, soft drugs

I want to throw you

I want you to know I know

I want to know if you read me

I want to swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit

I want to know just how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll do

I want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted

I want a controlling interest

I want to be somewhere beautiful when I die

I want to be your secret hater

I want to stop destroying you but I can't

And I want and I want and I want

And I will always be hungry

And I want and I want and I want...