One Man Army - Holidays lyrics

Don't rememeber much these days, all I know is what i've been told, lateley everything seems to fall on deaf ears, didn't know you were gone, to live was too late, [Chorus:] and if it all? it all ain't my fault, I take the consiquence? for the holidays, give me one more shot, ??????????a way back to your heart, Don't remember much these days, only us, when you were just 19, lateley everything seems so fucked up, didn't know you were gone to live was too late [Chorus x2]