Matisyn Screams Patience - ITIWISTBHCIDF lyrics
Is this voice really mine, telling me:
'No one's gonna love you, boy. No one's gonna love you, boy.'
Mark it with a song, and then fuck off.
I'll tell you what:
Die.
A pitiful excuse for a human.
Times that come out like this, they always miss me.
And when you come home release the hate in a tub of luke-warm water.
And it's sad but it's more real than you would know,
How I hate me, it keeps me safe, don't get too close.
This brave little facade fades away.
What's left? What's left?
Cold; insignificance; too much emptiness;
I hope redemption comes with a swift hand,
Holding a picture and a knife in the other hand,
Poised to break my skin and to lay me out.
Wouldn't it be nice for both you and I,
If you could wave your hand and make me prey for change girl;
I'd love that change girl.
How long? How far to run from this horizon just to break my heart again?
Why do I fall so hard? Is it you? Is it me?
Is it just history repeating?
It hurts; suffocates.
Well bring it on baby, I need it badly.
If this is where I'm supposed to be how come I don't fit?
And it's sad but it's more real than you would know,
How I hate me, it keeps me safe, don't get too close.
Oh, this brave little facade fades away.
Can you tell me what's left? What's left?
Cold; insignificance; too much emptiness;
I hope redemption comes with a swift hand,
Holding a picture and a knife in the other hand,
Poised to break my skin and to lay me out.
Okay, you win. I'm nothing and I know it.
I don't wanna hear 'I'm shit' for the rest of my life.
So I'm begging:
'God intervene, God please save me,
God when you're here next won't you take me away?'
It's sad but it's more real than you would know,
How I hate me, it keeps me safe, don't get too close.
Fuck this brave little facade and fade it away.
What's left? Cold.
Cold; insignificance; and too much emptiness.
I hope redemption comes with a swift hand,
Holding a picture and a knife in the other hand,
Posied to break my skin and drain me out.
