Katatonia - Had To (Leave) lyrics

so you were with us until the last minute

and then you were gone from here

and I watched and I just figured out

that I will never see you again

I had a choice

you had to leave

into the night

this was my choice

it's so hard to explain what I meant

when I said that I wanted you dead

but I saw you fuck up and I just can't get back

the feeling I had for you

so I put all my strength into my only will

it was the only thing to do

and now I only regret that I cried

cause you would never do that for me