Joseph Arthur - Ashes everywhere lyrics

I'll be silent in my solitude

Can't find my smile or my gratitude

I'm afraid of what I might do

'Cause there's no me

If there's no me and you

I wish that i could open up your eyes

To feel the sun that burned in your mind

I can't deal with what you have done

Reincarnate i wonder who i might become

With the potential of a loaded gun

I could be as fresh as hard bubble gum

I don't have nothing, now I want me some

First some of you, then some of everyone

Oh darling since you've been away from me

I know how the pins feel in the bowling alley

They say love is something you feel but never see

When I see you I firmly disagree

I'm just trying to be all that I can be

Without destroying you

Or joining the army

Your ashes must be blowing everywhere

'Cause i could still feel you and you're nowhere near

And though you didn't say so i can tell that you still care

We could've had it all but then nothing is fair

I still think about washing your hair

I wish i could've washed away all of your despair