Jandek - One Last Chance lyrics

I need another chance

I need one last chance

I've looked at myself

I don't like what I see

I need another chance

To try to do it right

I can do it right

If I have the strength

If I keep my will

If I direct my body

I can do it right

I need another chance

Because I looked at myself

And I'm goin wrong

But I can do it right

You can show me how

Like you did before

When I really needed to do it right

I was in a fix before

I was really in trouble

It was sharp and quick

It took me by surprise

And you helped me then

It was a matter of time

But this time it's different

It's been a growing thing

It wasn't sharp and quick

No no no no

It didn't take me by surprise

It came along slow and soft

It crept and I saw it all along the way

It came on bit by bit

And I knew it all along

The only difference is now

It's gone too far

It's gone too far

It almost seems irreversible

I need another chance

I wanna do it right

Cause when I looked at myself

It was going all wrong

I've got to change my style

I've got to do something different

I've got to be in my world

I've got to see what I see

I've got to hear what I hear

I've got to move through time

With me on my mind

You can forget the rest

Because if I think about it I'm gonna lose myself

And it'll be too late

Don't let it be too late now

Don't let it be too late now

I need another chance

Cause it's gone too far

I hope it's not irreversible

Let me stem the tide

Let me reverse this thing

Let me put my hand up and say “Stop”

Even “Turn around, go back where you came”

Give me another chance

Because I can do it right

I can do it right

I've got to do it right

Because if I don't I'm gone

I'm real gone

And I don't want to lose

All of my control

I wanna be the driver

The one ridin' in the trunk

With the rope around my feet and my hand

And a gag in my mouth

Don't wanna be kidnapped by

What? Who? Where?

I wanna move through time

With me on my mind

I wanna be the driver

I wanna say to my selves,

“Move like you should, assemble yourselves

and do right for this body, this mind,

this soul, this spirit, this being”

I wanna live right

I wanna live so right

I don't wanna go wrong

And I see myself goin wrong

So I've got to stop

I've got to summon my powers

I've got to drop off all the dead and dying

I got to cauterize my wounds

I got to stem the tide of the bad

I got to say

“Stop, turn around

Go back to from where you came”

I wanna be right, you bad go back

Go back to from where you came

Bad bad, go back, bad bad, go back

I wanna be right

I wanna be right

I wanna control my body my soul my mind my spirit

I wanna be in charge

I wanna say it's like this

I wanna say it's like that

I don't wanna be told

Don't wanna be told

“You gotta be like that

You gotta be like this”

Cause it don't help none

I know why I know where I know how

I know when I wanna be

I know what I wanna be

I know how I wanna be

I know when I wanna be

I know where I wanna be

I wanna be right in my own mind

If I can't be right

I'm gonna be gone

I don't wanna be gone

I just wanna be, me, here, now

Give me another chance

Give one more chance

And let me do right

Once and for all

All time eternally

I wanna be right eternally

I don't have to be alone

I can be alone

I don't have to be alone

But I can be alone

But I don't have to be alone

It doesn't matter

Right is right

It comes from outside, not from the outside

I wanna be right from the inside out

I want you to see

I want them to see

I want to be right for everyone to see

I wanna be right

For me, for you, for them, for the elements

For space, for time

Please give me another chance

Don't let it be gone

Don't it be the end of being right

I saw myself right

I let it go, give it back

Give me another chance, give it back

I let it go, give it back

Give me another chance

I wanna live right

I wanna live right

I wanna be in charge of my life

My death, my eternity

I wanna be right

And I'll do anything

I gotta summon my powers

I gotta be myself

I gotta have my will

I gotta be myself

I gotta get my strength

I gotta conquer these foes

I gotta beat up on bad

I gotta elevate the good

It's so easy to see

Bad and good, I can see

I can see what's bad and good

I can look I can tell I can judge

I can point my finger

And say “That's bad, that's good”

And deep inside I know

I can't be wrong

If I'm right, give me another chance

I wanna be right

I wanna be right

I wanna be right

Give me another chance

Give me another chance

Give me another chance

Cause I looked at myself

And I saw bad

I looked at myself and I said

“Oh, is it too late?”

Is it too late?

Oh, please don't let it be too late

Don't let it be too late

Help me reverse this trend

Help me stem this tide

Help me put my hand down and say

“Stop, turn around,

Go back to from where you came”

Let me take the good

Let me put it in myself

Let me digest the good

Let me emanate the good

Let me be in control

Don't let this sickness take me over

Don't let these things get me down

Don't let these things take effect

Don't let em change me

And I don't mind if I change

But let it be good

Let me change to the good

Every time I change

Every second I move

Every time

I turn around

Kill the bad, kill em

Kill the bad

Kill the bad

Generate the good in me

Kill the bad things I got inside me

Let them die

They don't deserve, let em die

Just kill em

It ain't like killin' no

It's annihilation, extermination,

Elimination elimination

Eliminate the bad

Cast the bad

Eliminate the bad

I want to be good

I wanna be right

There's only one judge of that

I know I wanna be right

I gotta see myself right

I got to see myself

If I'm not right, why not?

Cause I did bad

Yeah, I did bad

And I'll tell you this

Bad is different for everyone that is different

And that's everyone and everything

So your bad's not my bad

But I got bad and you bad

Unless I don't know you like I know me

But I know me, and I got bad, and I got wrong

And I don't like it

And I want to eliminate it

I want it gone before I'm gone

I want bad to be gone before I'm gone

I don't want to be gone

I want bad to be gone so I can be

I don't be right

I wanna be right

Give me another chance

Give me another chance

I won't let you down, not this time

Three strikes and you're out

And I had one

And I hit a home run

But I stopped after first base

And hey, they,

They pushed me, they

They pushed and pulled

But they couldn't pull me any farther than that

Must of been fear

I think it was fear

Cause I had it made

I had the whole home run

But I missed it

Second time up

I hardly even swung

I didn't even try

I quit trying

I knew what I should be doin

Every once in a while

I'd touch my little toe in the water

But I never did jump in

I never did dive in to that water

And that's what I know I gotta do now

Cause if I don't do it now I'm gone

Because wrong is at the point

It's at the point of smothering me

Smoldering me, drowning me,

Putting me out

And I need to burn my flame

I need to ignite

I need to spark

I need to beam

I need to shine my light

Give me another chance to shine my light

I don't want to go down

I don't have to go down

Not if I got some will

And I got some power

And I got some strength

And I got some control

And I'm the driver

And I'm in charge

I can do it

I can do it

Hey, I got to do it

If I don't do it, I'm done

It's either do or be done

I'm not over yet

I'm not over

I'm never gonna be over

I'm never gonna end

I shall not end

I'm not gonna be gone

I'm gonna be forever

Eternally I shall be

And I'm not saying

That I always was

I'm saying I shall always be

And I make this decision now

I shall be

I want to do right

And there is no eye in this universe

That can tell me

What right is, because I know what right is

And I know what wrong is

By this time I know

Give me another chance

Give me another chance

I surely need your help

I surely need your help

To conquer death

To conquer evil

To conquer bad

I wanna be in charge

I wanna control my destiny

I wanna live up to my standards

I know it can be done

It came sharp and quick

And you helped me

And I conquered all

Now it's come slow and soft

And I need your help

For the last time

Cause if it's not this time

I believe it's never

And I can't face that

I don't have to face that

I demand your assistance

It only takes one word

And that word is yes

Give me your yes

And I'll give you mine

I gave you mine

I forgot it, and I'm sorry

But you hit me hard