ETHIC - Anguish lyrics

[Verse 1]

I been conditioned since before I denied being a Christian

In denial, on trial, I fire

Entire worlds collapse with the weight of mere words

Words construct a sanctuary that changes in a day

In a way, it makes sense as dense images fade

And I take time to forget the finer things in life

Despite not understanding this numbing sensation

I'll cave in probably before I'll prevail

I'll excel pass places others promised to fail

Success is subjective and dismantles the collective

As remedies erase duality

Dueling, ruining my blissful ignorance

Refueling my renaissance

I'm lost seeking to be found, listening for sound

Wearing this crown façade proudly

The proud be plaguing my insecurities

As I nervously ask you to murder me

It's sure to be an identity resurrection

With childhood memories I keep on forgetting

And this continued condition's proving contagious

As I am Ethic and Ethic has become anguish

[Chorus]

Have you ever felt this way?

Or am I the only one?

Anguish has taken a place in my heart

And all I can do is run away

[Verse 2]

Transform this child of the storm

Scorned, as thorns scar my sight without unveiling itself

Unconditional love seems to have guidelines

Landmines placed on an already narrow trail

Driven by desire to be driven by the third nail

And somewhere in my walk I'm bound to pick myself up

But if you give me your hand, I'll be eternally grateful

While as a human I have trouble discerning what is distasteful

I'm playful when it comes to matters of life and death

First and last breath being taken and being left

With the ability to hold truth to what I can accept

And I know lust better than I know respect

And I don't cuss, but that don't make your mind darker than mine

I've seen the abyss and done things people would find

Strange to say the least (deranged) feed the beast

I've recently required a need to live in peace

As footprints in the sand speak with the weight of words

I live in the hourglass struggling to be heard

And I've covered quiet land in search of language

As I am Ethic and Ethic is anguish

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]

Isolated stares into an island backdrop

I can't stop considering where I'll be in a few

Years from today with a new outlook on everything

That at one time may have made a difference

As major turns into minor, I give no resistance

I'm a terrible witness and need not fake being convinced, it's

Gonna work out, though I hold tight to the faith I have

I've always been one to take too much of a bad thing

I live in extremes and I'm not who I seem

A cry for help need not play out traditional scenes

Hiding behind laughter

Held up by missed prayer of omega K4 is on plasma

Watch as I shatter right here on this track

'Cause what I'm speaking today I wish I could take back

And act like there's nothing compressing my brain

Pretend like I'm happy and only ethic remains

The fact is right now there's a lot to sort out

I'm swimming in doubt and surviving on hope

And I can live without an answer now if that's required

But I feel this empire's been built on the guilt of its sire

And reconstructions in order from the ground level

A requiem for order, pierce me like metal

Blades of awakening, beginning his banish

As Ethic slowly separates from his anguish

[Chorus x2]