Cadaverous Condition - Beautiful lyrics

"this is my heaven and this is my hell"

where are the depths that make me fall into

where is the walk that me me fall with you

where are the depths, at them I stare

where is the walk that made me dare

where are those impressions that I knew

now all I have are memories of you

where are those eyes, so near

where is sometime ago

I crucify my sadness

but just like Jesus it remains

I bury my tears

but I know the seeds are fertile

passion isn't everlasting

thoughts rise anyway

I set my memories on fire

will -o'- the wisps never guide a way

fifty five years ago a god departed

today another life for me has started

I drown in my own sorrow, revel in my mind

I let my tears rain down on me and say it's beautiful

the eyes, here and now and I die

filled with tears born in your eyes, I don't cry

delirium, on your side, pass away

oh please don't take it all away